Sweet taste of hunger

Well, where does the time go? God is real good. Since I last posted I have been able to cut back on some hours at work as well as be apart of the SOS clinic that provides free health care to the community. I also got the time off to travel to Turkey Oct 6-20 and minister with some of my favorite people ever.  We will be apart of a five day continual prayer and worship as well as practically helping out and ministering to the team that we will be staying with. I am very excited to see God move over there!

It was a priveledge and honor to be able to share my heart two Sunday's ago with my church family. I have been really stirred up about dwelling in a state of desperation and deep hunger for more of the Lord. It is such a dangerous place to become complacent and numb to the work of the Lord. I know that settling into a job creates a routine and its easy to become scattered and distant from the fresh outpouring of the Hold Spirit. I don't want to miss anything! .

I look at David, and Mary( Jesus' mom) and also Mary of Bethany in the Bible who had such a hunger for more of His presence that they swayed the Father's heart through their desperation.

David tasted of His tangible presence hundreds of years before the Holy Spirit was released but God had compassion because His word says in Matthew 6: 

" Blessed are the poor in spirit for theirs is the kingdom of God."

 It is those who chose to lay it all down every day at His feet deciding once and for all that His presence and His face is way more important and needed than any other thing/person that will sway His heart.

Mary of Bethany poured out 20,000 dollars worth of perfume on the feet of Jesus because she saw His face and knew that was all she wanted. She wanted Him, not her lifetime inheritance that would take care of her for a long time. She decided to waste herself on Jesus...to become spare change in His pocket and please the Father's heart. She was mocked for her acts. They said why didn't she do this instead? Why not give your time or money here? She knew where she wanted to be and she camped out there and because of this our Lord Jesus left that place smelling like she did.. and she smelt like him. The fragrance of her wastefulness went with him to the cross and to be forever talked about as He promised. She knew she was the joy set before him. It was her acts... her heart that brought him to the cross. It wasn't the nails that held him there... it was Mary. It was the Mary in all of us... the desperate heart that will lay it all at his feet. Fully attentive to Him. To learn. To give. To gaze. To become wasted on Jesus is my goal so that after Jesus and I hang out... I smell like him and people know where I have been.

Proverbs 27: 7 says..."but to one who is hungry everything bitter is sweet". 

For you will not delight in a burnt sacrifice....the sacrifices of God are a broken spirit. A broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise. Psalm 51:16-17 

But God chose what is foolish in the world to shame the wise; He chose what is weak in the world to shame what is strong; God chose what is low and despised in the world, even things that are not, to bring to nothing things that are. 1 Corinthians 1:27-28